<sup>Tonight I'm happy and cheerful
Coz I know there is someone there missing me
Though I don't know why and how
I do know that he and I are kind of spiritual

The thought that someone in this world is missing me tonight
Makes me feel so touched and satisfied
Though I don't know him a lot
I do know that he and I are kind of connected

The air is moist with rain poured fresh
My heart is pounding musically with good feeling abound
Though I don't mean to fall in love
I do enjoy this spontaneous spiritual consent

Human being needs this kind of affection
To heal the wound
To activate the rusted mind
To instill wisdom
I'm lucky to have you near, have you close
To share my mind, to share my joys, and my fears
I feel fulfilled to be diligent once again
To express my thought in my loved English
It's all because of you
Your telling me you are going to miss me tonight</sup>

My dear kids
Earthquake took away your lives
Without any signs
Look like a conspiracy

No time to be amazed
No time to respond
No time to ask for help
No time to cry

My dear children
I am earger to touch your skin
I am desperate to allay your fear
I am dying to exchange my life with yours

My dear kids
I will do my utmost to please God
to ask favor from Him to protect you from anguish and
I grieve at your death and my heart is torn apart

My dear children
I will gaze at you at night
You won't feel lonely and sad
Please feel at ease and I am with you
There where you live is going to be a paradise

I was awakened at 7 o'clock by my mobile phone,  who should be that who called me? I wondered and reluctantly I got up to reach the phone, on the other end of the phone, it was a familiar lady who just visited me a week ago.

A sweet weekend sleep was ruined anyhow and  my husband was apparently annoyed too by this early call. I approached the window and lifted the curtain, it was still raining, the street was sparkled with the rainwater, some early birds already have started to seek their fortunes and enjoyment on the road, just like the lady. Thinking unable to go to sleep anymore, we sat up and leaned against the bed talking,  some of which concerning with this lady.

I encountered this lady 10 years ago, at that time she was just a new face in the city we live in, her husband was a layoff worker, her daughter was studying in primary school, they earned a living by selling some small items beside the street, with items laid on the ground, upon which a piece of cloth was covered.

I left my mobile phone number to her by saying that she could reach me if she would have met some difficulties. One day she came to my unit abruptly, out of my expectation, one of my colleague told me that I was expected by a lady, I was utterly amazed at that, for I knew nobody except my colleagues after my fresh graduation. It was her, seeing my coming, she burst into tears and poured her grievance to me, upon her confiding, I was told that her items were deprived by city inspectors, I consoled her and gave her some money about 100 yuan which was just distributed as a subsidy and subsequently in the following days I took her to several agencies for help.

After that, she got some substantial help indeed and she started to do her small business by selling some commodities near her house, then we seldom contacted with each other till one day she called me again and we had an appointment at my room, I was told that she had started to do some insurance business for an insurer, she solicited my help by introducing some clients, I could not do anything beyond my capabilities and we didn't meet again until this year, she told me that she had started a business by joining a direct marketing company, she proudly announced that she could earn 80000 yuan annually now and she is embracing a much more promising future. Her earnest intent to recruit me to be her subordinate was palpable, at the same time, she wanted to express her gratitude of my previous help when she was in hot water. I did not fail her, though I excused myself of her kind offer, by introducing my younger sister to her, she was pleased anyhow.

I have witnessed her experience from being the poor to be the small rich, she was transformed by her wisdom, perseverance, hardworking and strong will. Anyone who has a strong desire to be successful is blessed by the ambition, she said that and she proved that.

Rain, Understanding and Personal Growth

Upon I arrived at the gate of my unit, it started to rain, lightly, in sight a little bit front of me, it was my colleague walking, with an umbrella holding overhead. I called her name, she turned around and gave me a big smile , her usual agreeable gesture to greet me. I raised my wonder of this fickle weather, she replied me that the weather forecast was right, I validated her words when I came to office and checked the weather forecast myself.

It appears not weather being fickle, it's my mind being muddled in mind of the weather and other things, these few days I struggled each hour, each minute, even in dreams I still suffered, this contrasted sharply with my husband, who has been vibrant since his recent promotion, being cheerful and gratified, which reminds me that how irrelevant one individual's happiness to another, for each person has his own expectations and therefore his own parameter to decide the content and the extent of happiness. I can't hide myself anywhere except confront my plight, yet I still try to aviod the confrontation, thus it gets deteriorated and my mood is exacerbated and I find myself go nowhere.

The established trust was shockingly nibbled by the drunken words , regarded as a bosom friend, his narrowness after the perpetrator of wine was betrayed, both hurt. The procrastinated task was unfulfilled and I am still not ready to bring it to the end. The housework I heroically claimed to be my responsibility nearly overwhelms me, plus, my daughter's three subjects are added as my tasks to help her improve.

 It is raining hard, yet my mind appears to recover from the wound, this noontime, my daugher joyfully shared her delight that she was assigned to be a little "zu zhang " in Chinese, prior to that, she has been "zu zhang" in English, and yesterday her math mark was 100. I was suddenly relieved at those good news. At reflection, I look outside of the window, thinking rain in the spring is compared to oil, are not understanding and forgiveness the rain to human pride, confidence and descipline to personal growth. 

While I was chatting with a neighbour outside the building , he showed up unexpectedly, a little bit earlier than before he came home in the afternoon, suddenly a sensation of compassion gained on me when I took a glance of him, seeing his slim, short stature, and a little bit languid look. Few occasions for me to realize that he is also a common person, like many, saddled with obligations and expectations, for I took for granted that he was capable to accomplish anything, including housework , and being good tempered, as he has done all the time. 

Yet these days I felt pity for him and began to concern about him, his health, his everything. He's been excellent and versatile, good-hearted, well-disposed, which contributed to his recent promotion, by two steps directly. It surprised him, as well as many, for a stunning post envied by many came to him easily. But he suffered from the wine, meeting, and waste of time, and I , start to worry about his body and health.

I know it's time for me to show my concern to him, it's time for me to work hard to support him, it's time for me to be good to honor him. I know I love him no less than anytime I loved him before,my dear husband.

When I was in the middle school, I was amazed at one boy who was not very clever but he always scored high in the exams, why was it like that?

The list the like is long, this question jolted me once again this morning when I was jogging, series of questions popped up as if I can conjure up inspirations, they are like : why some people can endure hardship, loneliness and even boredom than others under the same circumstance? why some people can resist temptations and lead a polished and noble life? why some people can be consistent in their pursuit without wavering? why some people have perseverance to hold on to their hopes?

The answer is more or less the same, those people can control themselves, they not only have strong will, but also develop good habits, they reinforce their positive attitude often, they reflect and meditate their life often, they are not rigid people though they stick to their tasks like glue sticks to the targeted objects, they can flex their mind's muscles enough when they feel needed, they not only survive but also thrive, they not only talk but also act.

I must pull me through, for I have unfinished work to do, whenever I feel languid, tired or lazy, my mind searches for images of sportsman, and the picture on my mind in which they play games with their rivals, they hold their spirit high even when the situation tilts favorably toward their competitors, they play carefully though they may have upper hands, that’s really a heartening spectacle, at those moments, I strongly feel the strength of spirit.  

The glory of being winner, the great pleasure derives from active striving, the unparalleled accomplishment of being crowned, all these do not come accidently to anyone, they are based on daily pursuit, buoyed up by high spirit fundamentally, an inner backing of oneself, a positive suggestion, an urge inside to excel others, a strong desire to make difference.

With spirit bolstering, no difficulty is a real difficult, no obstacle is a real hindrance, you are able to find yourself not that lazy, not that sleepy, not that shy, not that passive, instead, you are transformed then, you may find yourself endowed with power and strength to pull yourself through and to accomplish what you really want to fulfill.