I felt terribly languid last night, staying home doing nothing, time elapsed by without being utilized, which worsened the void of my mind, with all sorts of concerns rushing in as if they conspired to punish me because of my neglect and inaction. I was overwhelmed. It seemed to me that negative mentality was the most tricky thing which moves swift to fill the vacuum of the stronghold of mind, when its control is loosened.

I struggled to pull me through yet I failed, indulgently I slumped into the chair and succumbed myself to internet, which never should and never fulfilled me as I expected, instead, the gloomy sentiment was severely aggravated, because two more hours was added in the list of waste. I determined to end the shocking feeling by shutting computer and washing my face.

On bed, my mind was pondering upon something inspiring, then an image of spider flashed into my mind, with countless failures, by wind, by human intrusion, and by other unexpected reasons, the net they weaved was devastated many times, yet, many times again they weave net again. This suggests me be resilient to any temporary difficulties and to be positive to the prospect.

No pains no gain, no weathering storms no seeing rainbows, no fighting no winning, no input no output, no harvesting no reaping, no joy can be easily tasted without experiencing hardships and having many tries.

Pain is not that painful when its value is substantially recognized, pain is something one can't avoid, it's an integral and indespensible part of joy, you can't go without it, so never try to shun it, learn to sustain it, learn to endure it and eventually you will acquire a way to go through it and reach to the joy. Joy is called joy sometimes because of many pain experienced before its approaching.

Be brave, be confident, and be positive, you are able to subdue the demon lurked in your shadowy mind. Remember, never leave a chance for it to tame your mind.