Rain, Understanding and Personal Growth
Upon I arrived at the gate of my unit, it started to rain, lightly, in sight a little bit front of me, it was my colleague walking, with an umbrella holding overhead. I called her name, she turned around and gave me a big smile , her usual agreeable gesture to greet me. I raised my wonder of this fickle weather, she replied me that the weather forecast was right, I validated her words when I came to office and checked the weather forecast myself.
It appears not weather being fickle, it's my mind being muddled in mind of the weather and other things, these few days I struggled each hour, each minute, even in dreams I still suffered, this contrasted sharply with my husband, who has been vibrant since his recent promotion, being cheerful and gratified, which reminds me that how irrelevant one individual's happiness to another, for each person has his own expectations and therefore his own parameter to decide the content and the extent of happiness. I can't hide myself anywhere except confront my plight, yet I still try to aviod the confrontation, thus it gets deteriorated and my mood is exacerbated and I find myself go nowhere.
The established trust was shockingly nibbled by the drunken words , regarded as a bosom friend, his narrowness after the perpetrator of wine was betrayed, both hurt. The procrastinated task was unfulfilled and I am still not ready to bring it to the end. The housework I heroically claimed to be my responsibility nearly overwhelms me, plus, my daughter's three subjects are added as my tasks to help her improve.
It is raining hard, yet my mind appears to recover from the wound, this noontime, my daugher joyfully shared her delight that she was assigned to be a little "zu zhang " in Chinese, prior to that, she has been "zu zhang" in English, and yesterday her math mark was 100. I was suddenly relieved at those good news. At reflection, I look outside of the window, thinking rain in the spring is compared to oil, are not understanding and forgiveness the rain to human pride, confidence and descipline to personal growth.