It is such a long time since I wrote the diary last time.

I know my vanity is so heavy, especially hearing that many of my friends are leading a much better life than me, I don’t know if I can call it jealousy, but one thing is certain, I am very painful at my current situation, both in work, study and love.

Out of these desire which I must get the things I want, I work and study hard in my spare time, and feeling guilty at wasting time, although there are still such thoughts that you will be enough marrying a good husband, no matter how strong it is, it can’t influence me, I tell myself that I can do what other excellent ladies do. ( Lady is my favorite word, once a stranger called one of my workmate” lady”, she is so angry at this, but I told her that this is one of my most favorite words, in my idea, “ lady” means elegance, success and noble. In order to get this, I will do my best to show. Now, I tell myself again: YES, YOU

CAN DO IT! COME ON!

Yesterday, there was a party hold by many of my classmate in SHENZHEN, I was invited by three girls, and I replied “yes”, however, I choose to be absent, there are many factors contributing my absence, first, my desire is not so strong to attend such party, although I like talking about things, dislike to talk to so many people, all the things referred to is just trifles in our daily life, I can’t see any meaning in mentioning such things, I would like to talk things in my inner heart. Sec, being not satisfactory about my current situation, I will keep silent during the party, once I said in our graduation party, after years, I will come to the meeting if I feel good about myself, and vice verse, perhaps, many people will feel that I am such a funny person, party delegates nothing, this is why I describe that I am not a good girl which I have told many boys who want to be friends with me.

posted on 2006-08-20 19:41 小A 阅读(377) 评论(0)  编辑  收藏 网摘收藏