Every affaire always begins with a lonely travel and end by the same lonely journey.

If you ask me the signification of travel, then I will tell you that one new journey is the ending of your old life. No one really tell you where you should go and what you should see during that journey but only yourself decide to pack your bag, take whatever train or bus and maybe hold one novel you planed to read long time ago on the road. No doubt that any kind of landscapes or single familiar shadow will remind the story happened on you, but there are no longer tears on face and hurt in heart.

One brand new travel, unknown and exciting but actually has no difference with the tranquil day only your affections. When finally back where you belong to then those pictures you took would remind you the old-fashion photographs of DIOR dress inside the big window in the Avenue des Champs-Elysées, the dream-like smile of Princess Margaret in the bustling crowd, or the ancient Rome Arena seems still around the noisy and bloody time. All only left you alone with fear and sorrowful standing on the central of the planning of La Defence of Paris. Have no feeling of being at home, I was planning to move to another city to start my new life totally, however, I know that I have to face with the truth myself and back to where we were. Only a flash of travel can let you out of tough situation for a second just in your imagination.

Since Tina went to the South and planed to have one week’s travel with her close friend Sara. Everything seems paused but each of us knew that it has not end yet. Whatever answer Tina got from Jasper of her 3 choices, it has been already meaningless to me, because the point for me now turned to the friendship but no longer my lover. I knew that has lost the right to love and to be loved very long time ago when I sent out the letter to Tina and let her to be brave to seize her own love. Somehow it reminds my last escaping, the shinning night with stars all over me and the coldest wind blow by face. Despite how hard I tried to forget and clam but everything backed to its beginning for one call from Jasper. Also, it is almost one month that no one see Jasper wherever at day or night, no messages from him at all. Excepted a few guys who live with him, no one really know what happened on him.

Nevertheless, even he begged, I knew that I will not ever fall again, I am completely out of this complicated relationship at all but being the truly me. As a rambler, I knew what I should do and which step will goes well. But the pity is no one really understand what exactly I’ve been through and been suffered all. There are still millions of words that I have not got any chance to say to him, perhaps that day will never comes. I only have the ability to write down them all, happiness, sadness, cries and laughs, let the scars on my heart too pain to paralysis. Then I can forget from the very first beginning to the final end. Someday I can say that it is too hard to remember when is the ending of my last love, perhaps is ended at the scorching summer or the misery autumn, but only left pieces of memory of person and sightseeing to pathos. That is the love I longed for years and even once believed I fell so deep that can not without him, for now, everything could be so easy. As older as I am, seems that less talk I will do with people around me as hard as hug. Can not find the way back to the familiar feelings but must face with those strangers machinery in daily life, then I not only suspected that actually love is so limit that I’ve already read them all in such a young age but also want to learn the power to meet the love not just lost it away on one past man. Now I can shout it out “I no longer love him at all.” To be a lonely person and enjoy the day alone silently, then the real life journey starts.

1

Sara: I have my secrets, of course. Everyone has their secret, it’s normal and mine aren’t bigger than others’. Of course, I don’t mean that mine are huge ones, but no one really knows anything about them.

Aside (Sara finished her meeting and is on the plane. One of her secrets is that she is afraid of air travel.)

Sara (shouted): We’re gonna die! We’re gonna die!

Jack (in surprise): What?

Sara: Did I speak so loud? (Look at Jack) We are going to die (slow and clear)

Jack: Actually I don’t think so. We’re ok, there’s just have a little turbulence problem.

Sara: (in shock) A little problem? You say that’s just a little problem? Of course you gotta say that. No one will say “ok I am telling you that we are going to die.” (Nervous) I know that, I know that we are not going to escape this time.”

Jack: Calm down. Ok?

Sara: (extremely nervous and begin talking) God, please, I am only 25 years old and I have not done anything yet, don’t even have a child. I haven’t even climbed any mountain. Don’t have a tattoo.

Jack: What? (In big surprise)

Sara: I’m sorry; I shouldn’t say this to you.

Jack: It’s ok, don’t worry.

Sara: One, two, three…..god, I haven’t done anything to make my parents proud. But since my niece moved in, my parents no longer notice me at all. They think she’s the best but the truth is she’s a jerk…I am actually 125pounds but I plan to lose weight. I have been looking for any kind of job but I was so disappointed that I even try to…that Kerry is a disgusting girl, she always cares about her table and her poor plant, and sometimes I’d like to pour juice in it. But Candy is lovely and every time we wanna have a short rest, she always come and ask “ can we talk about the number stuff of the new issue?” but that means we will go to the starbucks for a while. Last week, I broke my boss’ favorite cup…I’m in a reading club but as matter of fact, I’ve never finished even one small novel, only read the beginning and the end. What’s worse, I have some misunderstandings with my boyfriend, he is so boring and he is terribly keen on jazz, which is horrible….

Aside (Suddenly everything is quiet.)

Jack: Sorry miss.

Sara: What?

Jack: We are on land now.

Sara: I am so sorry, you should have stopped me.

Jack: (smile) Well, that’s difficult. But it’s alright. Don’t worry, we are both so nervous. Are you sure you’re ok?

Sara: Yeah, of course. Have a nice trip.

2

Aside (Sara goes back to her flat and decides to tell her flat mates that she will live with charley.)

Sara: Hey, I’m planning to move and live with charley. What do you two think?

Lisa: (in surprise) What? You never talked about that with us before? When? Why?

Sara: I was trying to tell you but I haven’t decided yet. So…

Janet: That’s definitely a wrong choice. Trust me. You are not going to do that. Terrible strategy.

Lisa: (to Janet) It’s not a strategy, we’re talking about love not playing chess.

Janet: Talking love is like playing chess. Every single step you have to be careful.

Lisa: Bullshit. Falling in love is kind of like finding a soul mate.

Janet: soul mate? Listen, Sara, if you wanna wear a diamond ring, then you are not going to live with him now.

Sara: okay, okay, anyway, I want to live with him. Or we are not going to marry. See, now we already have a little misunderstanding with him. I have to do something.

Lisa: no, you don’t have one. You two are so nice.

Sara: by the way, this weekend I’ll go to my mom and spend the whole weekend with them. God I can not bear my niece. Such a conceited woman.

3

Aside (Sara goes to work as usual and she thinks everything is going well)

Candy: hey, look over there! (Sara looks through her figure and through the window, everyone is in a mess and it looks like very abnormal.)

Paul: can you go back to your offices? I don’t want to see everyone walking around outside the office; you all should sit at your desks. Hurry up, guys! (He says to everyone in the office and looks like quite upset.)

Sara: what happened? Why dose everyone look so very nervous?

Paul: Jack Hall is coming to watch our work here.

Sara: what? Say it again? Today? You gotta be kidding me!

Aside (Jack walks into the office and talks with Paul about the new program. Then he recognizes Sara and Sara feels embarrassed and tries to hide in her office.)

Paul: I want you to prepare some coffee and tea for the meeting and interview this afternoon. (said to Sara) oh, by the way, Jack is coming too.

Sara: what interview? Well I just wanna know whether I have to go or not?

Paul: absolutely, it is very important. Hurry up Sara.

Aside (Sara walks to the lift and find Jack standing inside it himself)

Jack: you want in or not?

Sara: yeah of course. (Feels nervous and upset, in the lift) Mr. Hall, well I just want to say sorry for the event on the plane and I promise that it won’t happen again.

Jack: well to be honest, you don’t have to say that. Everyone has that kind of experience, myself included. And when I worked in a small company I used to be like that too. (With a kind smile face with Sara.) To tell you a secret, I used to run away for a coffee and use “the Olive file” as an excuse when our team wasn’t working as well as we told our boss.

Sara: well that is surprising to hear actually.

Jack: by the way, would you be willing to join the family meeting of your company this weekend?

Sara: it feels no different than seeing the dentist (Sara said this without thinking.)

Jack: (laugh) I think so too.

Aside (in the office, everyone is sitting and ready for the interview, waiting for Jack.)

Host of the TV: welcome Jack Hall as our guess today. He will tell us how he has run his own business so well in such short a year as well as his new program for the coming new season.

Jack: well, after I left the company I used to work for and lost my program, I indeed felt down and it was hard to start again. But everyone has to face the past and the future as well. So I decided to run my own business. And recently, I feel happy because I’ve found my inspiration.

Host of the TV: can you tell us some details?

Jack: we are planning to focus our new products on females about 25 years old.

Host of the TV: what kind of girls?

Jack: she is around 25 years old, she used to work in the office and she goes to work by subway everyday.

Host of the TV: Mr Hall, that kind of girl is too normal that we can find thousands of them. Do you think they can discover a new market?

Jack: yeah, I’ve thought about that problem before, and I’ve already done the market research. I found some ladies and asked them some simple questions about the new product. And I knew this girl, I knew her style, what kind of clothes she wears, her dreams about her future job, she actually wears size 12 clothes, but she said she just wears a size 10. ( pause a second ) and she used to eat bread only, and she used to drink cappuccino with cereal in it.

(Sara suddenly realizes she has cereal in her hand and is trying to put it in her cappuccino.)

Jack: of course, as far as we can tell, there are millions of people who are brilliant at work but she is different, she is so real, and she has sadness as well as happiness. She wrote down an exercise but never finished. She pretends to read the <economic week> but has < superstars> under it.

Abbey: wait a moment, you used to be like that. I saw you do that once. (suddenly he said to Sara)

Jack: she likes fashion but she only wear jeans.

Abbey: oh my god, that’s impossible. Is he talking about you? (abbey turns and looks at Sara’s jeans)

Sara: no, it isn’t me! Of course, not.

Jack: and she usually shops in second-hand shops. Luckily, all the clothes she buys are almost new. But she hates knits.

Candy: I can’t believe that, you hate knits! But you said you love them. How can you lie to me?

Sara: no, it isn’t what you heard, I like them. You’ve know it for a very long time.

Jack: she cries when she listens to Carpenters songs and her favorite singer is Lene Marlin. However, she thinks Jazz is quite boring. She can’t bear it at all.

Aside (Sara closes her eyes and feels embarrassed, she wants to run away at once.)

Jack: on her appearance, you may find that she is a mature woman, but she has cartoon sheets on her bed.

The host of the TV: is she sexy?

Jack: yeah, she is. But I think she will be better after she finds her inspiration and potential.

Aside (Sara covers her eyes with her hands and imagines that Lisa is watching this interview in their flat, feeling angry with her.)

Sara: let it just be a dream, ok? Come on (she shouted) no…it isn’t a imagination, it has nothing to do with a dream, it is so real.

Jack: she trusts true love and romance. Also, she is brave and self-confident in everything. (Pause) oh sorry, a little off point.

Host of TV: ok, thanks for attend this interview today, Mr. Hall.

Aside (Sara opens the door and runs away. They all went out the office and Charley calls Sara)

Charley: Sara, could I have a word with you in private?

Sara: I’m sorry, I know I lied to you. But I didn’t mean to.

Charley: why you never told me that you actually don’t enjoy jazz at all. Then, maybe we could listen to something else.

Sara: I’m so sorry, I don’t know how to say this to you. Things happened to fast and too many. I can’t tell you everything in a moment.

Charley: you don’t really have to say anything. I just want you to be faithful to me. or we should break up. That would be good for both of us.

Sara: I am so sorry.

Aside: when Sara is walking through her office, she met Nick.

Nick: I didn’t notice that you are such a woman. Are you dating with Jack?

Sara: would you please leave me alone. Thanks.

Nick: oh, by the way, we haven’t finished our new program. And I think that would be better if you can discuss this with Jack directly.

Sara: what? How can you say this to me now?

Nick: the advertisement! Rill a bell?

Sara: the advertisement! For heaven’s sake! I can’t believe that you stole my idea and now want me to….go away! (in totally mess)

4

Aside (Sara goes back to her flat but feels upset and nervous because she knows that Lisa must have watched the interview and must be angry with her.)

Sara: Hey, how are you?

Lisa: Oh, hi. (She is looking at the floor all the time) God, en…I am ok. Hi Sara.

Sara: Well, I just thought I’d feel better staying in our flat rather than staying in the office. That place is terrible.

Lisa: Yeah… ok

Sara: So…I guess you’ve already watched the interview.

Lisa: Yeah, of course. (silent for a while) I just want to say ….just if you want me to move out then I will.

Sara: Ok. I’ll move out.

Lisa: No, I’ll move. It isn’t your fault but all about me, my misunderstanding.

Sara: What? You didn’t.

Lisa: Yes, I did. (she looks so sad ) I feel so upset and nervous, I never thought you’ve got such kind of idea of me.

(We are both in silent in a moment)

Sara: I’m sorry. I’ve just been totally betray. (Smile hardly) Today is the most awful day.

Lisa: Did everyone in the office watch it?

Sara: EVERYONE. They all watched and they all know that it is me. They’re all laughing at me. I would rather go and die.

Lisa: How could he do this to you? So you think he actually planned everything from the very beginning?

Sara: Obviously. I won’t trust any man, ever!

Janet: Right. You are right. Oh, by the way, you indeed borrowed my GUCCI bag without my permission.

Lisa: Oh, shut up, and stop talking about your stupid bags.

Janet: See, I was right, you should never tell your secrets any man. It only gets you in trouble.

(The phone is ringing right now.)

Janet: (pick up the phone) hi. This is Janet.

Phone (Jack): I’m looking for Sara.

Janet (to Sara): It’s Jack.

List: Tell him that Sara won’t want talk to him

Janet: She should talk to him.

Sara: Give me the phone. (on the phone) hi.

Jack: Sara, it’s me. I’m sorry I didn’t mean to hurt you.

Sara: Never mind. I don’t wanna talk to you. (she turns off the phone suddenly.)

(The phone is ringing again)

Sara: (on the phone) Please, just leave me alone. Ok?

Alex: It’s your dad. How are you, Sara?

Sara: Oh, hi dad, I’m ok. How are you? And how is mom?

Alex: She is fine. Well, we just watched TV and your friend Jack was on it.

Sara: He isn’t my friend.

Rachel: We both feel sorry about that. But it isn’t your fault. He’s using you to introduce the new product.

Sara: Don’t worry, mom. I’ll be fine.

Rachel: Actually, we are calling to give you a gift.

Sara: A gift?

Rachel: yeah. A car. You need a car, Sara. We know you can’t afford it right now. so…we decided to buy one for you.

Sara: Dad?

Alex: yeah. Oh, dear, don’t worry about the money I lent to you before. Just forget it. You are my daughter.

Rachel: Sara, we are a family, just the three of us.

Sara: Thanks. I love you.

5

Aside: When they were talking in the café, Jack came in and walked towards Sara

Jack: Hi, how are you?

Sara: Sorry, I am talking with my parents and I don’t really wanna talk to you.

Aside: Sara’s parents want to go and say goodbye to her.

Rachel: (say to Jack) You need to talk to her in private. Don’t worry, you and her both will be fine.

Alex: Good luck.

Sara: (say to her parents) You can’t just leave like this. I need you here.

Rachel: Come on, talk to him. He must have his reasons.

Jack: Please, Sara.

Sara: Leave me alone, ok? We have nothing to say anymore. You betrayed me and used me as the advertisement? I trusted you in such deep….I can’t believe how can you do this to me.

Jack: Listen to me, Sara, I know I made you feel down and in big trouble, but …. Is that so important?

Sara: Is that so important? (shout it out) You walked into my life, gave me to romance and made me believe that I fell in love with you….(pause) You said you are attracted to me and you were so caring that it made me think everything you said was so real. I trusted everything, but it was all actually lies.

Jack: No, it isn’t what you think. (he catch her arm) You made a big mistake. I’m not what you think, I didn’t betray you.

Sara: Of course, you did. (she is trying to leave there)

Jack: ok.ok.ok Listen to me, Sara, I admit that I always miss you and even put you into my program. But that doesn’t mean ( he looks at her) I always think about you, that is the truth, I indeed always think of you…(pause) I have to say this and you have to hear it, these weeks when I was working on this new program, I found that you are everywhere in it and I was totally falling into your life and sometimes asked myself ‘will Sara like this?’ You are in my life and work, my thoughts, everywhere. But that doesn’t mean you aren’t real to me. You are so real to me.

Sara: how can I trust you, you pushed me into such a terrible mess. You nearly spoilt my entire life. My boyfriend broke up with me and all my friends left me. What else I can have? You? Your belief? Or your new program. Come on, please, let me go.

Aside: Sara walked out of the café and back to her flat. She packed her suitcase and wanted to leave this city. Jack was coincidentally on the same plane and sat next to Sara, telling her all of his secrets.

The high wall of Bastille blocked my sight, so that I can not see those walking people on the square. But only can hear the sound of talking and discussion, and the voice of walking is strangely familiar with knocking on the wooden door. Standing alone beside the wall and hearing the sound on the other side of it, sometimes become fast, sometimes become soft. I have no idea what happened but only under my imagination. Maybe it was a war, or maybe it was a celebration.

It seems to show me my most dreadful life, come and go like a computer program, and time swallow the sun and noon as same as the evil curse the power of angel to fly. The winter shortens the sun shine and weakens the warm air. When I want to size how much I lost, it seems I cam such a tiny one even don’t need to be mentioned. It looks like one chapter of exciting song, no more soft and peace can match it, only left the strong melody to move your mind passing of every second of every hour. I want to have a long distance journey. It reminds me the awful excuse is growing to be a rainforest, and I found there is a wild flower on the floor of my house, swing in the freezing wind, and cold air is deep seep into fiber, it seems tell me a fairy tales, the light and soft ring from the bell.

When there is a snow, I walk on it with the sound of trampling. Someone told me once that she would feel total gloomy naturally in winter, just like a necessary process. Can not escape or skip. But I said to her the moods and weather is always be together in a close relationship, what is more, not only you just feel hot or cold but your feelings scratch your peace heart into pieces with your past memories. Even the drum can not stop you or even pause for a second. It feels like you are in a small boat floating on the sea, then suddenly a strong wave comes to you and pushes you to the reef.

Back to the reality, get a bus with no real place to go. Still can not see through the wall of Bastille, I watched the landscape slowly change as it clung to the last hours of sunlight. It is funny, the fast I run after the last sunlight, and the less warm I could get from the sun. Because there is an army in front of me but I could still feel a faint shift in a far away place. A current of unknown consequences is on its way. Moving towards me like an unstoppable wave of fate.

a bit to eat 随便吃点东西

To have a bit to eat means to go and have something to eat. It usually means to have a small amount of food- so a snack or a light meal- or it can just mean to go and eat some food or a meal.

即指随便的吃点什么东西或者吃顿便饭的意思

Example:

A: I'm hungry – shall we go for a bite to eat?

B: Sounds good.

A: So are we going to see the new Harry Potter film later?

B: Yes. If we meet at 6 we should have time for a quick bite first.

( a quick bite 就是很快吃点东西 )

Big cheese 大人物

Cheese 是干酪。但是这里 here the phrase ‘big cheese’ means something quite different. It actually refers to people in business. To be the big cheese of a company, you are at the very top of the company, you are very important and you have the power to make things happen in the company. Big bosses sometimes are called ‘the big cheese’.

Example:

A: Please make sure you come early tomorrow.

B: Why?

A: Because JP is going to be here tomorrow.

B: Who is JP?

A: Oh, you know, John Parkins, he's the big cheese from head office.

PS: it is a informal phrase, and best not to say it directly to your boss. Definitely, donot say to your boss, ‘hello, how are you today, big cheese?’ you might get fried for that.

Gift of the gab 能说会道

In English, we have an expression to describe someone like who is always talking and sounds really confident. We say he’s got a gift of the Gab. It means he speaks in a way that make people want to listen to him.

Example:

A: John's best-man speech was amazing.

B: I know, it was so funny. I could have listened to him for ages.

B:He's really got the gift of the gab!

PS: those people would have the gift of the gab, such as salesman, TV presenters or radio presenters. Remember, to describe someone who speaks very confidently and in a way that makes you want to listen, we say they have the gift of the gab.

Doggy Bag 打包

A doggy bag is actually something we get at a restaurant. Sometimes when you eat our there is a lot of food and you can not finish everything because you are full-well you might want to take that leftover food home. So you would ask for a doggy bad.

(Well, it's because sometimes people take leftover food home to give to their dog – but most of the time the food is for people to eat not dogs. But we always call it a doggy bag. )

Example:

Waiter: Is everything OK?

Diner: Yes thanks. Can you put this in a doggy bag for us?

Waiter: Yes, of course.

PS: if you want a doggy bag, you might also just ask ‘can we take this home, please.’

Faff about 瞎忙活

To faff about, means to spend a lot of time doing unimportant things when really you should be doing something more important.

Example: A: Come on, hurry up, we’re going to miss our train!

B: Just a sec, I’m can’t decide what scarf to wear.

A: Stop faffing about! We need to leave now or we’ll have to wait two hours for the next train!

Freeloader 吃白食的人

A freeloader is a person who would be happy to stay at your house, eat your food or spend your money for free but they would never give you anything back in return.

Example: A: Have you noticed how Mike never buys a drink – we always buy him drinks but he never gets his money out.

B: I know. It gets on my nerves. He's such a freeloader.

Hotline 热线电话

A hotline is a direct, quick telephone line that gives you access to help or information. When there is a disaster, like a plane crash, there is usually a telephone number to call for information. That is a hotline.

Example: A: I’m worried about my brother in the USA. There have been enormous storms where he lives.

B: Call this number. It’s a 24-hour hotline and they should be able to help you.

Posh 优雅的

The people who are rich, with nice clothes, who speak nicely and have good manners and might be called posh. We might also call someone posh as a joke.

You are getting a bit posh aren’t you? 在这个时候， posh 就不是真的优雅的意思了，而是假高贵的意思了。一般，人们更喜欢用在评论什么人的时候，而很少当面说别人，除非像刚才我们听到的那样是开玩笑。

Example: A: We're moving house – we've found a nice place next to the park.

B: Ooh that's a bit posh isn't it?

Road rage 交通暴躁情绪

You may have heard the word rage on its own. It means to be extremely angry. Road rage means to become extremely angry on the road when driving – and then to actually attack other drivers! Of course, sometimes people get very angry when they drive. They attack another motorist, you call this road rage.

Example: A: Hey, John! What happened to your face? Have you been in a fight?

B: Kind of. I was the victim of a road rage attack! An angry driver hit me in the face!

A: That’s terrible! Did you call the police?

B: Of course, but as I didn’t really get a good look at him there’s not much they can do.

Techie 技师

Well, a techie is a technician who is very good at – and interested in – a particular technology, particularly computers. You could say, "Don’t worry about the new computer system – the techies are coming tomorrow to fix everything."

Example: A: What do you do in your free time?

B: Well, I’m a bit of a techie. I spend most weekends working on my computer.

A kite is flying such low as if carrying a heavy lead. A man is running after behind it as if feet are fettered by chains. So there is always one step left. It is hardly to claim and to face with the real inner beings of us. We are always good at use those gorgeous lies to package ourselves and paralyze others at the same time, finally we believe our lies too. We never so calmly to face up those crimes and evils we did.

The 12-year-old son of rich Amir and Sam the servant were as good as brothers. However, after one kite game, one tragic event happened and Amir drove Sam away because of his cowardly and himself was suffering the pain and blame. After that, he fled to America with his father. After Amir grown up but still could not forgiven the fault he did when he was young, then he back to his hometown and want to get atonement and hope to do something for his unfortunately friend. But suddenly found a huge lie, the nightmare of his childhood recalled which pushed him down into nearly helpless, what he would do? Amir, faced with the weakness of his own characters, lying, hypocritical, arrogant even evil etc. he finally choose run away. This is the most common choice would be chosen by an ignorant young man, but he suffered for this in his whole life by lashing his heart, guilt and fear always around him.

一只风筝，飞的那么低。仿佛背着铅垂一般的沉重。一个人，在后面追赶。双脚好象被链条束缚，所以总是差上那么一步。我们很难去承认，很难去面对真实的自己。我们总是善于用华丽的谎言包装自己，顺便麻痹别人。渐渐的，相信了自己的谎言。我们从来都不能坦然面对自己犯下的罪和恶。

12 岁的富家少爷阿米尔与仆人哈桑情同手足。然而，一场风筝大赛的背后，发生了一件悲惨不堪的事。阿米尔为自己的懦弱感到自责和痛苦。他逼走了哈桑。不久，他跟随父亲逃亡到了美国。成年后的阿米儿无法原谅自己年少时的错，重新返回了故乡。渴望赎罪，能为不幸的好友尽一份心力。却发现一个惊天谎言。儿时的噩梦重现，进退维谷的阿米尔，此时该怎样抉择？阿米尔，面对自己人性中的缺点，怯弱，说谎，虚伪，善嫉，矫情，邪恶，自大等等，选择了逃避。这是一个无知少年，最容易也最常见的选择。但他为之，也付出了自己的一生。心灵的鞭打，愧疚，恐惧始终都笼罩着他。