不知道是广玉兰还是白玉兰开了一树，潇潇洒洒，

纯洁的白色，淡淡的清香，

静静的，大方的带给人们春天的气息

看得人心驰神往，真想变成她

也这么随性 悠悠的一天一天的过

植物们能够存在那么长的时间

是不是因为她们没有心事呢

今天是真倒霉呀真倒霉 都可以去买彩票了 巧事都碰一起了 真是无巧不成我的今天呀

上午本来有课 偏偏有事走不开 那没有办法只好调课了

谁想中午一个电话质问我为什么没来上课 有老师听课

彻底晕倒 哪有就赶得这么巧的呢你说

本来吧 我也有点预感 觉得可能要听课

可是那也没办法呀 就是不能走呀 就赌一把吧

看来我是不能搞投机行业了  逢赌必输？？

没办法 写检讨吧 这么多年了就见过还没学过呢

一动笔竟然发现自己还有写这个的天赋呀 哈哈

写起来都不带打顿的呢 行云流水 一气呵成

嗯 看看感觉还不错 态度很诚恳 语言也适当

没想到自己还有这优点呢 算是一个安慰吧 呵呵

不知道这件事会不会就这样过去

还是我今天点背呀

要真是这样 那我干脆回去睡觉睡到明天天亮好了 省得再惹出别的事情来

嗯嗯嗯

听说今天是白色情人节，不知道为什么偏偏是白色而不是其它颜色的

那2月14号是红色的吗


珍惜生活 我知道生活是美好的 但是有时候也会让人失望

当你满怀真诚去对待，付出时，心里是欢喜的

可是换来的可能会是别人的不理解和冷漠

这时候还能继续自己的热情吗

劝慰的话 讲大道理的话都听过

但是当事情实实在在的发生在自己的身上的时候

那些话真的能work吗

真的就像灵丹妙药一样改变心情吗

对我不是的

我没有办法开解自己原谅一个刚刚伤害过我的人

我不知道别人都是怎么样的 但是我就是做不到

可能是修养还不到家吧

常常会羡慕电视里那样纯洁的友情 执着的爱情 包容一切的亲情

可是现实却总是有很多的无奈

想好好的过好每一天

然后静静的等待生活给我的礼物

可是有时也会羡慕别人的幸福 独品自己的落寞

看了以前写的

想起自己又好长时间不写了

事情好多啊 每天总觉得好像很忙

可是朋友问起的时候 自己也说不出来都在忙什么

有时候会觉得累 想要逃

逃到一个没有人认识我的地方 重新开始一种新的生活

可是我知道这不可能

有很多的东西放不下

于是只能坚持 虽然不知道这样到底是对还是错

有时候 不知道是因为自己太傻 

还是因为对待生活太严肃了

别人说什么我都会当真

想改很难 也觉得无所谓了

有时候觉得自己很成熟 有时候又会觉得很幼稚

有时候觉得自己了不起 有时候又觉得一无是处

怪不得说 人是矛盾统一体

真是有很多的矛盾 有很多困惑

一切只能靠自己去经历 去体会 去解决

对成熟既渴望又恐惧

不知道自己以后会是什么样

就只能这样走下去

god

i have not come here for such a long time . what have i been busy with?

what have i gotten from that ?  i was busy learning english . and after a period of time , i do find that my english improves.

so that is "practice makes perfect" . i got it ！

i just feel time is not enough , if only i have more time .


so continue going ahead .

just now a topic about winter let me think much about winter

winter , a cold season . many people dislike it just for this reason

but i like it sort of due to the cold . let me explain:

although sometimes it  was sheerly cold , i can do something to deal with it such as jogging , playing badminton and rope skipping and something like that .even after a short period of exercising , i can feel comforteble and warm .

iin summer , however, even if u want to do some sports , due to the hot weather, it can be impossible . maybe u will get insolation after that . it is not worth the candle ^_^

so maybe because i love sports so i love winter , at least it is a cause

and there is more

in winter , we can play with snow while in summer we can not play with water as we are grown-ups after all

and , we can skating .

we can wear many clothes to seem like a snowball .  hh  how cute !

and there is spring festival in winter  

i love this holiday . it is the most important holiday in our country

people can rest and unite together to have a family party ,cooking delicious together and playing and chatting

moreever, even the air is filled with happiness and hormany

i like the feeling

and now i am expecting the first snow in this city

my task is good good study and day day up

my future , my life, my dream ,my god

it is a finny day today , with fresh air ,blue sky , white clouds and beautiful birds singing in the sky

anybody knows ? no ! nobody knows ,even i myself , have the faintest notion

 

hearing of the experience of finding a job , i feel sort of pity and frightened .
because i know my real ability and what i have gained in these years of studying
and sex discrimination is usual in almost every aspects of our country and the situation is more serious in my major .
just now , one of my brother said that his experience
one company is good and he wants to get the job . however, the interviewer required him to have a brief self-introduction in english . unfortunately , he has a poor english
so he lost the opportunity
i feel sorry  for him
and at the same time , i think of myself
what is my competence ?
it is not late for me to consider the problem ,i still have time
and therefore i should make the best of my studying time to make myself more knowledgable and adapt to the potential job
from now on, i should prepare myself for it
come on ! fighting !

today i had an interview for a part-time job

out of my expectation, there were a houseful of people there for the opportunity

and an short self-introduction is needed

i had never thought of that and had not prepared at all

and what's worse , i knew nothing about the product that the company wants to promote

to me , it is just a part-time job and i just want to have a try

even if i failed it is not a big deal .i still have things to do during the vacation

i did not take it seriously from my heart

but the result is that many of the interviees had some preparations

i tried my best to think hard at that time
 
and when it was my turn , i seemed like nervous and forgot some of my words

now i remind the scene at that moment , i get something from it :

first , i should make a preparation in advance . and in the preparation , informations of the product and company and even the culture of the company should be included . for short , the more i know about the job , the more probability i will gain !

second , i should pay attention to my appearance . even if that one's outlook is not the key for a job , people would prefer to see beauty . and moreover, i should justify my spirit , wear warm smile on my face and behave well .  because it was mealtime and i did have lunch at that time and i did not pay much attention to it , the interviewers might think i was in low spirit and a little nervous . anyway , i looked bad ! i promise it will not happen next time and forever ! as i am a person who don't care about appearance but real abilities . however , how can people know your abilities for the first sight . so the first impression is also important . at least it shows your attitude to the job and the interviewers . it shows your politeness and respect . it is indeed a point ! suppose i am an interviewer , i also want to see a polite , well-mannered person .

third, in my introduce , i should refer to my abilities and experiences associated with the job . those are what i should emphasize . i should say something that are meaningful to the interviewers . what is the job about ? which kind of ability does it require? do i meet the requirement? these are all i should know clearly . 

in addition , a suitable job should be a "win-win" ,for both me and the company . 

it will fit me well and at the same time i can make profit for the company !

whatever the result is , i have the experience . and it makes me know more about  job interview !

and i will do better next time

something is wrong between my and my friends

the interpersonnal relationship is too complicated to understand

i hate misunderstanding and i hate explanations

i want to erase the annoyment things from my mind

i can not figure that out  they make me confused and upset ,depressed ,get me down

bad things happen and you can do nothing about it

then how should you do at that moment

where is the answer

where is the way out

there is still a long way to go

i am in bad mood now :((