Do you know that I'm OK?
Are there things you wanna say?
Thinking of you night and day
Hopping you'll come back and stay
I remember when you told me
I'll be all right
Don't worry...

I try and try to understand...
Is all this just a sad good bye?
Thinking of you night and day...
No matter if you'll come and stay
I remember when you told me
I'll be all right
Just hold me...
I don't wanna close my eyes tonight
Missing you make me cry
Your love will give me strengths to carry on
You'll always be my heart and mind
So I don't wanna close my eyes tonight
I know it's just a miss match in time...
Why...oh ...why
Miss match in time

I try and try to understand...
Is all this just a sad good bye?
Thinking of you night and day...
No matter if you'll come and stay
I remember when you told me
I'll be all right
Just hold me...
I don't wanna close my eyes tonight
Missing you make me cry
Your love will give me strengths to carry on
You'll always be my heart and mind
So I don't wanna close my eyes tonight
I know it's just a miss match in time...
Why...oh ...why
Don't wanna close my eyes tonight...

又是一个星期过去了.考完试后,总是觉得时间过得好快,有太多太多的事要去做,但总是做不好. 而作为处女座的我,总是追求完美主义,可是自己能力有限,所以 Everything turns out a disppointment. 然后整个人陷入低谷,变得孤寂起来.
我很羡慕身边的同学伙伴,他们总是有太多的东西和朋友们分享,有太多的 topic 去谈论, 他们的 comment 总能得到很多人的赞同. 而我总是像那墙角的花,不起眼.  说什么都没有人赞同.  苦恼啊 
每当这时,我都习惯性地喝咖啡,咖啡是热的,它能温暖我的心,就算外面的世界有多么的冷漠无情, 它总能带给我些许的安慰.
唉,不说了.人还是应该往前看. 愿这杯咖啡能把我的烦恼都带走吧!

    有好久没来了,最近一直在为很多的事烦恼,痛苦着. 我这个人很怕麻烦,所以我的人生就是在躲避一个又一个的麻烦. 很多时候,我很讨厌自己.讨厌自己的生活方式,讨厌自己的饮食习惯,讨厌自己的为人处世的方式与态度. 我妈曾经说我是现代版的林黛玉,以后一定是单身的命. 我一笑而过. 单身有什么不好的呢? 一个人的生活要多自由,就有多自由。没有太多的约束,不会因为别人的言行举止,而郁闷老半天. 远离人世间的尘喧,找个世外桃源静静地生活,过最简单的生活,这一直是我心中挥之不去的念头. 可是又有多少人能成为像陶渊明那样的真正的隐士呢? 人有太多的对于这个社会的牵挂,不是吗? 父母,朋友[hjp3]事业,感情;梦想,目标.…… 太多太多。割不断，理还乱。 每天，我就生活在这样的矛盾与斗争中，是对理想的永不言弃的追求，还是屈服于现实，混混沌沌地过完我这白开水一样平淡的一生？
    今天看到一个好友的个性签名，眼前为之一亮。“很低很低，低到尘埃里，却在尘埃里开出花来。”很美的句子。很对我的胃口。 像陈绮贞的《Pussy》、Keren Ann 的《Seventeen》，低声细语，却透露出一个简单却又深刻的人生哲理。那就是永远要坚持你自己的理想，但是要换一种方式去实现它。人要学会在各种环境中生存，生活，奋斗。逃避不是办法，它只会让自己越来越软弱，最终软弱到离自己的梦想越来越远。
    专四终于如一阵风似地过去了。 回顾一下那段时光，突然发现那是大学生活由始以来最有收获的一段时间。 看来人只有在学习奋斗中才能找回真正的自己。 我决定做那颗种子，让我落下吧，回到最低的土壤里，只有这样我才能开出娇艳的花来。
hjptype=song&player=5&file=http://www.lele2005.com/music/song/Pussy.mp3&backColor=FFFFFF&frontColor=000000&autoStart=false&showDownload=true&width=200&height=20[/hjp3];

Today, I am really unhappy. I do not know why. These days, I am worried about my determination between Literature English and Business English. In fact, I have interest in both two. But allowing for the future, I prefer the literature English, since I do not have any advantages. SO that I am not sure I have the power to compete with others.
   However, there is always someone who would like to comment. 什么凡是在外面混过的人都和我说要选商务,凡是在呆在学校的人都说要学文学,etc. Sorry that I could not compeletely release my anger in English. It is too terrible to stay in my little "society" now. They are really too fulsome!!!
   Oh, my god! Is it my fault to make such a choice? Mama, Papa, forgive me ! Now I really need a cup of coffee to have a rest!

    今天是我开博的第一天,这也算是我的处女博文吧. 今天是母亲节.早上躺在床上,给妈妈发了一条祝福的短信.短信内容很简单,:"老妈,节日快乐!!!"我是一个不容易表达那种很肉麻的能把人感动地掉眼泪句子的人.但我相信一句简单的祝福语句就可以让妈妈感动好久.
    just like the title of a song--love has it all. Love has no identical form. what is the most important is that you can express the love deep in your heart~~~
    妈妈,节日快乐.祝天下的母亲节日快乐.你们是最伟大的!!!